My Life in Slow Motion

YEAH!

2006-06-17T15:41:34Z

Finally a laptop and wireless internet at my house! woot woot! I will now be on alot more! Yeah for me and I can finally update alot more too. Maybe I'll make a myspace.

I saw britta today at teh mall.

Wow she's pregnant! I love it. she's so cute.

music_cookielvr @ 2006-06-01T08:01:00

2006-06-01T12:08:15Z

So

I dont have enough credits to graduate. this blows. My classes next year are.

Fall:
Block 1: Physics Level 1 with Finky
Block 2: Study Hall
Block 3: study hall
Block 4: Algebra 2 level 2 with damon
Block 5: Wind ensemble
Block 6: Study Hall
Block 7: Theory
Block 8: Study Hall

Spring:
Block 1: Chemistry level 1 with finky
Block 2: Photography 1
Block 3: Study Hall
Block 4: Algebra 2 level 2 with damon
Block 5: Wind Ensemble
Block 6: Quilting 2
Block 7: theory
Block 8: Study Hall

Wow. Easy days all around. And I get to switch into any homebase I want. I choose Erics. tee hee.

This really isn't the worst thing in the world. I get to go to project grad, and end with the seniors, but I just have to come back and repeat the year. Sure I wont be with my friends, but I dont think I'm ready for college anyways. and I get to do marching band again next year. I'll obviously let abbi be capt. I dont want the stress of that again, but I dont care casue I get to march again. Maybe I'll audition for boston next year.

music_cookielvr @ 2006-05-30T12:49:00

2006-05-30T16:47:52Z

It's offical. I'm not graduating. This blows. I've been crying for the past two hours. I'm coming back next year and graduating with the class of 2007.

I'm a failure at life.

what more could happen to make this worse?

music_cookielvr @ 2006-05-30T08:09:00

2006-05-30T12:11:15Z

GAH! I am so sick. I hate this. Life couldn't get any worse.

Last tuesday my guidance counciler called nme up to tell me that I need a hundred in marine bio to graduate. I have an 84. and I need an 84 in algebra to pass. Neither of my teacher will give me extra credit. this sucks.

weee

2006-04-27T02:15:48Z

Kinda hanging out with rodger adn Mariah this weekend. I'm excited.

I got accepted to UNFK for biology. doint wanna go.

mmm...

2006-04-13T11:46:10Z

Working now. and it's amazing. I actually have money.

We went tux shopping yesterday. Really easy and fast. It couldn't have been better.

8 weeks of school lefts

I got accepted to SMCC...
wait to hear from other schools.

This sucks

2006-03-20T12:58:22Z

Saturday fucking sucked. I'm not going to lie, I know they had fun and I'm happy that they got second, but I kinda wish that they didn't make night finals. Skeff is such a bastard. The MBDA (aka Skeff) could have changed the winterguard show for maybe ya know sunday or something, but no they had to plan it on the same day, so if there was certain people (::cough:: Diane and Me) that were in winterguard would beable to go to the winterguard show and jazz state finals. But noooo, he had to plan them on the same day and, people like me, who had to get up at 5:30 in the morning to get ready to go are usually really tired by the time they have to preform a 6.5 min show. So because I was tired I didn't have the energy or strength to do anything, so naturally my latteral toss was low and I hit myself in the forehead, and now I have a giant bruise. And I blame it all on the retarded MBDA and skeff. God I hate them, I hate everything to do with music now. I hate winterguard, I hate marching band i hate jazz, i hate my tenor. I hate it all.

I'm gunna kill music and everything to do with it. I HATE IT!

Jazz

2006-03-18T01:06:00Z

Jazz band was amazing today, Jazz band 2 got 4th place with a 1 (top score) rating and Combo got a 1 rating but I dont now what place we came in, we were in teh top 5, we didn't place though....::tear:: Shockingly Neil didn't even get an award!

New journal

2006-03-16T19:37:58Z

ok so I changed the look of my journal. Kinda happy I did, It's summery and I like it cause I think my mind is starting to shift into no more school mode. Tomorrow is jazz states. I'm kinda nervous. But I know I'll do fine, if my tenor isn't being a fuck face again. Yesterday whenever I played a wicked high note using the side keys and switched back to a note where I actually use the regular keys it would squeek. and not a high pitched squeek, but a low squeek, like the keys weren't closing al the way, but then when I looked to see if any of the keys weren't closing all the way, I could see that they were. Stupid tenor. I wish I had a tenor like pauls. His is sick. Prom is just two months away. Scary. It's really hot in senorita foss' room. damn. I'm getting my prom dress made for me! if you really want to see the design you'll have to follow these directions becuase the website is dumb and wouldn't let me link to the picture or copy it.
So...
Go to http://www.bcbg.com and click enter.
After the 3 girls appear with the brown boxes under them, click on the middle one which should be the BCBG Max Azria Ready to Wear collection after that loads and you see and bunch of clothes to the upper right of the screen look down to the brown boxes and click on the Sort By Catigory button, and a menu will appear. click on Eveningwear and dresses will appear where the clothes were, now click on the right arrow twice, and the dress i'm getting made it the middle dress in the top row, it's not going to be brown though, it's going to be lavender with a darker purple sash and I'm going to have a small train on the back, so It's going to look really pretty. Yeah so that is my dress. well I have to go cause I'm going to be measured now!

Not Fair

2006-03-16T13:41:19Z

i wanted to give blood yesterday and i couldn't becuase my iron is still to low. Bleh

Evan is a lying bitch!

2006-03-07T16:06:30Z

ok so If anyone sees a big scene today at lunch it's because I'm going to be screaming at Evan for lying so much.

Evan is claiming that he lives in an apartment with his cousin. And he gave Eric the phone number. He also said he has is licence and a new puppy.

We went to the Dog house to look at the puppys and Evan fell in love with The only Female brindle colored boxer they had there. Evan wanted it. So we had to leave cause Sofie, Diane and I had practice. So even came in the next day and said, his exact words "My cousin and I are going to get the puppy tonight" The Next day he came in and said "I went and got that puppy."
So of coarse I was all excited. But then Eric went to see if the Male boxer was still there and guess what? The Female boxer that evan said he got was still there. Then he came to school the next day saying that Tanner (what he named the dog) Had a tumor on her paw and she had surgury to have it removed, that's why he wasn't in school the day before. We all just played along with it untill I got fed up about a week later and finalyl asked evan. "why would you lie about buying a dog from a store that you know we go to all the time, and he said "I told you I got her from the Animal Refuge League." No he didn't. So then later that night Eric called his "Apartment" and Evan's mom picked up the phone, Eric asked if Evan was there and she said "No he's at Driver's Ed" He doesn't have his licence! I rode in teh same car as that fucking lier. If we had gotten into a car accident, and I was injured, Oh the things that could have happened. Anyways, so teh number to Evan's "Apartment" Is actually the number to his house. And Sam Story confermed it. And everytime evan claims to call his "aunt" using Eric's phone, there are never any minutes that were used on teh phone. it always says Evans Apt
767-6322
The date
00:00:00

and he has a fucking coversation with it. That lying bastard. I'm going to yell at him and he's gunna wish he'd never talked to me because I fucking hate Lyers and they all need to die!

haha I'm a 90's kid. christ

2006-03-01T16:14:56Z

You know you're a 90's kid if...

You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"

X You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"

X You've worn skorts and felt stylish

X You yearned to be part of the Baby-Sitters club

X You use to love playing with your MY Little Pet Shop

X You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"

XXX You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.

X You wore a ponytail on the side of your head and had fluffed bangs. -Have you seen my 4th grade picture?

X You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. - Who didn't?

You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in kindergarten

XX You remember reading "Goosebumps" -that crazy R.L stine. I used to have them all.

X You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off"

X You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf. - How did they get baby smurf?

X You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school. -Fraggle rock all the way!

X You remember the craze then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books.

You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not...

X You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green Ranger were meant to be together. -isn't it obvious?

X You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up" -Say it quite frequently.

X You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates I always fell.

X You ever got injured on a Slip 'n' Slide -still can't figgure out the proper way to slip n slide.

You wore socks over leggings scrunched down

XXXX " Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back" SHE ASKED HER MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER FOR FIFTY CENTS CENTS CENTS TO SEE THE ELEPHANTS ELEPHANTS ELEPHANTS JUMP OVER THE FENCE THE FENCE THE FENCE"
he jumped so high high high he touched the sky sky sky and he didnt come back back back til the forth of july ly ly he jumped so low ow ow he stumbed he's toe oe oe and thats the end end end of the elephants show ow ow

X You remember boom boxes vs. cd players

X You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare"

X You remember Alf, the little brown alien from Melmac and Vicki the Robot from "MY Little Wonder" -Tee hee

X You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool -I had new kids on the block pajamas!

You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"

X You played and or collected "Pogs" -I still have a few!

X You used to pretend to be a MIGHTY MORPHIN Power Ranger and you owned a Skip It -I wanted to be the pink ranger, but Dennis (is now gay) always got to be her.

X You had at least one GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere -I used to baby sit them for everyone.

X You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles -My little pony!

X All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.(pencils.notebooks.binders.etc.) - those cute little tigers.

X Yikes pencils and erasers were the shit. -they still are

X You remember when the new Beanie Babies were always sold out. -an yet I still have millions of them.

X You used to wear those stick on earings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes.

X You remember a time before the WB. -it did exsist abby.

X You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?" -I was always afriad of it. Including the episode when the kid gets stuck in teh mall and it turns into a giant video game and tries to kill him.

X You thought it would be so cool to be Alex Mack. -minus the whole biohazard/nuclear chemicals dumping on her she was the shit.

X You know the Macarena by heart.. LOL -who doesn't?

X " Talk to the hand" ... enough said -Talk to the elbow cause the hand 'ant worth the extension.

X You thought Brain would finally take over the world - the animaniacs!

You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"

Repost this if you were a 90's kid and can relate to any of these
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Holy cow!

5 months!

2006-03-01T15:55:49Z

5 fabulous and wonder months! I'm so happy!

Evan said he got a puppy. I dont know If I believe him, but I'm going to hope so cause I dont know why he would lie about getting the puppy. I think Eric is going to go to the Dog house and see if the female boxer is still there after school. I wonder. I want a boxer puppy. ::pout:: Anyways I start driver's Ed on the 27th! I'm so excited! Larissa had to drop out of guard and now there is only five of us. If only we could get rid of christina I would be happy. She still continues to piss me off. so what else is new. They have the air conditioning on in the library again. those idiots. hopefully I'm going to be getting my prom dress shortly. I'm either having it made or getting it from a shop in portland. We'll see. Eric played his trumpet last night. He was in so much pain, but I was shocked. It sounded beautiful. I'm not joking. He wasn't straining at the notes like it sounds like some trumpet players. I was amazingly beautiful. It sounded like the guy that came into church and played the trumpet. I didn't know highschool musicians could sound like that. He thinks he'll be able to play on friday. I told him to practice a little bit everyday. he's going to. I can't wait to start driver's ed.

ugh...

2006-02-17T02:17:20Z

So yeah, I so fainted.....I'm so embarrassed. Right in the hospital. It sucked. One minute I was closing my eyes cause of tunnel vision the next I was being lifted up onto a stretcher...Akwardness anyone...? I'm about to watch Saw 2...tee hee. I know I'm not going to want to sleep alone tonight. Tee hee. it's cold down here....hmmm... bye bye now.

Orchids

2006-02-15T13:03:53Z

I got Orchids for valentines day! Man is he good.

AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRgggggggggggHHHHHHHHHHH

2006-02-14T16:28:38Z

So musical was cancelled and my mom didn't get to see it. So sunday night I went plowing with eric in his brother's truck. Ok does anyone know Alex's ex girlfriend kim. well she's a fucking psycho. we stopped at amatos to get food and she followed us there and then Alex got out of the truck and Kim yelled "Who's the bitch with you" I wanted to get out of the car and be like,
"Excuse me where do you come off calling me a bitch, you moronic, self-centered, selfish, spoiled cunt who stalks her fucking Ex-boyfriend, who obviously doesn't like you very much, along with everyone else in his family. Your a loud obnoxious fat whore who needs to leave Alex and everyone else in his family alone." and then she would have gotten out of the car and beat the shit out of me. Actually that's a lie, because Neither alex or Eric would have let her lay a hand on me. Or so they said. But I still wanna have a go at her. Beat the shit out of her....I wish I could beat the shit out of her. I know I couldn't, but after Eric's surgury, We're going to be going to the gym more often and then I'll be fucking ripped cause I'm going to do Strength training. anyways yeah. Musical was cancelled. so pissed. None of my family got to see it. I was literally crying. eric was like, "it's ok" and I was like, "Yeah it's ok for you, but this is my senior year, I'm never going to beable to do this again." I was very upset. Anyways at briggons house sean kept slapping my ass really hard. and we wrestled. It was alot of fun, Eric and Jamie were wrestleing, Me and sean we wrestleing. It was fun to wrestle with someone other then Eric for once. I can't wait till teh cast party. I can't wait until the Marine bio field trip.

Wee

2006-02-09T19:56:10Z

I'm in guidance typing this up while eric is at jazz band. And the lady just gave me a ten minute notice untill I'm getting botted out. Well quick update

Musical is amazing, Eric blew the engine in his car. I'm going to be taking driver's ed soon. this keyboard really does suck a lot. they are selling dippin dots at lunch. sweet. valentines day is comeing up...and eric has jazz band...bleh... I think I'm going to kick my mommmy out of the house that night at cook Eric dinner. Yeah...that's what I'll do. musical is slowly draining my energy adn my brain. I think I fall asleep every class period. it sucks. I fell asleep during the crapshooter's scene in the musical, while we were performing. winterguard is coming alot good. Skating is coming along amazingly. apple to apples is the best game ever. well I've got to go.

BRINDY!

2006-01-23T15:46:20Z

We're takeing brindy for a walk today! YAY! I can't wait!

I learned how to spin at skating!

Password shit

2006-01-18T16:13:46Z

I had to make up a new password cause someone was abusing my screenname and my accont was frozen. What the hell is up with this shit. I'm so pissed.

WINE AND BEER

2006-01-13T13:14:21Z

I'M GUNNA BE AN AUNTIE ON AUGUST 22!!!!!!

YAYAYAYAYAY

Worst Birthday ever

2006-01-11T13:26:41Z

I had the worst birthday ever. I tried to do alot for my friends, I really do, but when I ask the ones who couldn't make it on sunday, to go on monday and they tell me they would, Eric and I went to Friendly's and waited, and no one showed up. NO ONE! Proves how many friends I really have. And I would compleately understand, but If i asked you that day if you were going and reminded you of the time and place and you said you were busy I would be fine with that, but if you tell me your going and then you don't, then it just ruins my night. I'm never reling on my friends for being there ever. Except for Jamie, Diane, Liz, and Jacob, those are the only real friends I have. and abbi but she's blood, so that doesn't count. The only person I'm going to trust from now on is Eric and that is it. He's the only person I can really relie on to be there for me, he was there the whole time while I was in teh hospital, and he said anyone would do that, but His family visited me more then my own family has, but I supposed they are all getting sick of hospitals, my family. anyways, he's been there for my random breakdowns about kimmy and my aunt, and he was there for my breakdown on monday night, when I was crushed that noone showed up to celebrate my turning of the big 18 on monday night. And when people that I didn't invite ask me what was wrong and I tell them and I know they are just saying "Oh i'd have gone if I'd known" to make me feel better, well i know noone would have gone, because I have no friends, and saying that is only going to make me feel worse.

Birthday parties and Bessie Smith

2006-01-09T13:38:05Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE!!!!!!!!!!1

I never got to say goodbye.

2006-01-05T12:52:57Z

I'm having a really hard time with Grammy Laura's death. I cry myself to sleep every night, I get angry really easily and I take it out on Eric, and then I start to cry. I wish it wasn't like this. I'm just upset that I never got to say goodbye. We were going to that day at noon, my mom was going to dismiss me from school and we were going to see her at the hospital. I dont think anyone understands the pain I feel. My mom was like "You saw her Christmas Eve and she saw you sing," but I dont care about that, I never got to tell her that I loved her and that she really ment alot to me and I didn't get to give her a hug and tell her goodbye. Eric keeps telling me "You can still say goodbye" Everyone keeps telling me that, but I really can't. Not that way I wanted to tell her. I wanted to give her a hug and tell her everything was going to be alright. but everything wasn't alright, she died and I didn't get to say goodbye. Grammy Henigan and Auntie Karen and everyone else got to see her, but not me and my mom. My mom says it was best that I didn't see her but how does she know what is best. I wanted to see her and say goodbye, once and for all.

On another note, my mom let it slip where my party was, it's at my church. I dont know how everyone is going to get there, if Abbi is going to give directions or what not. Whatever I'm not even going to worry about it. I have a funeral to prepare myself for.

Winterguard rehursal last night was depressing. We have 5 people if Diane does it and the best people there are Me, Abbi and Diane. I must say I hate Christina with a burning passion. Last night Abbi asked me who I wanted to come to the party, so I was telling her and christina was like "ever think of inviting us?" and I wanted to turn around and be like, "No because I dont like you," that would put her in her damn place. And then Tara was teaching us rifle, which I've done all four years of my highschool career and christina was just learning how to do it last night and sucked at it too might I add, so I was like "Tara can I do saber, I know how to spin it and I would really like to do it," and Christina was like "I get dibs on saber cause I've been asking for it longer," I was almost like "I've been asking to do it since sophomore year and I've been spinning weapon longer then you and I can actually do it, asking has abosultly nothing to do with it you fucking retard." but instead I said a more sensored version. "Your just learning how to spin rifle tonight, you can't even toss it, and you can barely do it, and you can't even do parallel toss with your flag with out throwing it and running, what makes you think that you can spin something not only harder, but more dangerous?" I'm such a bitch, and I'm really am sorry, but I so sick ofeveryone thinking they are the best at colorguard and just becuase they just picked up a weapon they think they can do it. I'm not the best at colorguard, I may be very talented when it comes to understand the work that is throwen at me but there are far better girls out there in the united states that are better then me. It took me 2 years to get rifle down, and I still drop it. Saber hurts when you catch it, so unless you have a high pain tolerence when it comes to colorguard and getting hit in the arms or the hands you can do it. Christina crys when she jabs her finger on the flag bag. Curse retards forever!

I feel...

2006-01-04T15:50:31Z

I have followed Damon...

Christmas was good. I had alot of fun.
Here's what I got:
A really pretty ring from swarvoski - Eric
Yankees Hat - Eric
Yankees Fleece - Lisa + Kent
Snowman Kit - Lisa + Kent
Rent Cd - Lisa + Kent
Music Note earrings - Paul and Lauren
A really nice CD player - Mom
Money - Uncle Donnie
Money - Auntie Karen
And a bunch of clothes.

I start Ice Dancing on sunday at 6:40 pm.

Grammy Laura died yesterday at 3 am. I didn't get to say goodbye. I haven't stopped randomly crying.

I'm having a birthday get together at friendly's on monday at 6 pm all are welcome, you have to bring money for your own food though...sorry...

My mom says there is a party for me on sunday, but she wont tell me the details so I can't tell people anything. I'd rather everyone go to the sunday party. It's at 2 pm I dont know where....ask Eric for the details, he knows what is going on....I would like everyone to be there, if your reading this journal then I want you there!

Love.

2005-12-23T23:05:59Z

First off I'd just like to say Merry Christmas to everyone! I hope all of your christmas' are good.

Right now as we speak I am printing 10 pages of sudoku puzzles -Meh Fav!-We had our first Pit band rehursal today. I hate key signatures with a bloody passion. Does anyone know what it means when it says Flutter and Slap tongue above the notes...?

Well dinner is almost ready so I better go.

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!